human contacti've got numb hands and shaking limbs, sunken lungs with a lost grail.we'll find each other again i know.you're something of a shadow. this watchmen guards me night and day, pleading, and i can't break it.yet every time that i awake a distance grows from sill to screen i dream of one day losing you.this is like i imagined it though, a short period of catching glances, your cold still body laying next to mine as i try to remember the last time you smiled.then you do no breathe another word and just like that it's all gone. and though you never leave me, it is as though you are a ghost.
close your eyes.he came back for her.he laced his shoelaces around her fingersuntil theblood circulationceased. and her fingersdropped off.and then he lefther onthe floorand sleeked away withsome girl fromnext door.but he came back.he sewed her fingernailsto the roof of her mouthand kissedthe tips of her fingers red raw;black and blue.he placed atop hereyelids tomorrow.a tomorrow he couldn'tpromisebut only blindly hopewouldn't hurt as much asthe yesterday he forgot.and with her lungs he emptiedhis breath amongstall the water fromhis eyes and filled theemptiness that waseating away at what she
Once Man, Forever SoldierI didn't wake up in a panic. I lifted my heavy eyelids and slowly my pupils adjusted to the darkness. I awoke calm and rational, just like any sane person would, on any "normal" day. It was the sound of the dogs barking that woke me, just like when my husband would arrive home late from work. Their chains rattled against the concrete as they whined for affection. This is what used to wake me up on most nights.I made my way down the hall, fingertips mapping the walls as I went. Even without the light on I could make out the silhouette of fake fruit mocking me from the bowl on the table. The smell of pine from a day spent polishing furniture
frailty thy name is womenyou looked at me with those eyes that pleaded for answers, for questions and for the unknown to present itself in front of you; within you. but you didn't get what you were looking for and I didn't give what I needed to, what I've been waiting two years to.I looked at you and it was as if time was spherical, as if we could both be in two moments at once. you, with your cigarette smoke and your smooth hands. me with my attempt at fitting in and my attempt at standing out.and who are we kidding, this is going no where. to pick something up now, to make it into false confidence, we'd end up back where we began. with nothing to lose and nothi
are 19 candles enough?when i was younger i remember telling my mother that i wanted to leave this place when i grew up.that i never imagined living here for the rest of my life.truth is, i never imagined living that long anyway.
anywhere but herei found you today with your head in clouds, with mybreath caught in my chestand i turned to the left and pretended you weren't there.and in that moment i like to thinkhe became your hero, your enemy and everything in between.i found you today with your head in clouds of smoke,my breath caught and my limbs shaking and i remembered'neither can live while the other survives'though no phoenix feathers at our core;i'm simply one half of choking bodyand you'll never remember what it's like to bewhole.
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